Apat na Buwan Pa Lang

Apat na buwan pa lang mula nang tayo’y pinag-isa

Sandali pa lang naman pala

Sa pakiramdam ay sobrang tagal na

Apat na buwan na puno nang iyak at tawa

Nasugatan ng malalim pero kinakaya

Masakit man, nagagawa pa rin magsaya

Apat na buwan pa lang, pero tayo’y sinubok na

Parang quota na agad sa sakit at luha

Sobra pa sa iniyak natin sa isang taon na tayo’y mag-jowa

Apat na buwan pa lang na puno nang aral at alaala

Na isusulat ko sa iba’t ibang tula

Upang baunin natin hanggang sa pagtanda

Apat na buwan pa lang sa pangarap nating lima o anim na dekada

Marami pa tayong isasayaw at ikakanta

Hanggang sa daliri mo’y di na kayang mag-gitara

Apat na buwan pa lang tayong mag-asawa

Ang dami na nating malalim na buntong hininga

Buti na lang nasa Diyos ang ating pag-asa

Apat na buwan pa lang tayong nagsisimula

Malayo pa tayo kahit sa gitna

Pagsubok siguro ay marami pa

Apat na buwan pa lang, may habambuhay pa

Wala namang di kakayanin, ‘di ba?

Hanggang kapit natin ang isa’t isa

Apat na buwan pa lang ang lumipas at nawala,

May mga darating na bukas pa

Haharapin natin lahat na magkasama

Apat na buwan pa lang ngayon, Papa

Marami pang buwan at taon na mamahalin kita

Dahil “hanggang wala nang bukas” ang pangako natin sa isa’t isa

and the two will become one flesh. So they are no longer two, but one flesh – Mark 10:8



Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. – Proverbs 31: 30

Allow me to honor and praise one woman whom I know is indeed praiseworthy. Her name is Madel; I call her Ats for AT Squared – Ate and  Attorney, and as per my research her name means high tower. Her name is also a variant of Magdalene who is a follower of Jesus. No wonder why she is indeed someone I look up to and indeed fellowship with as a follower of Jesus.

Today, as she celebrates her awesome birthday, I just want to honor her and remind her of how she is loved by me.

MOLDED with beauty.

Created in the image and likeness of God; therefore, she looks like  a goddess (walang kokontra, birthday niya).



She listens to younger girls’ advice, and despite her status in life, she serves in Church in the different ministries.


Ats may be looking fragile at one look,  but do not be deceived, inside her is a one great lawyer soon.


Ats is just so sweet and it can be seen in her actions; no wonder why many people loves her and wants to be around her.


One could not resist but admire her beauty, intelligence, and charm. Ats, is always LOVE, for she is a woman fears and love the Lord.


Happy Happy Birthday!

You are such a blessing to my life and to the girls. We are so honored to be with an honorable person like you.. hehe.. For being our ate when we need to be serious and for being a kalog when we need a good laugh.

I know God has indeed prepare a good future for you, and I can see that you are almost hand  in hand with your dreams. I’m so excited to be with you as I witness the faithfulness of God in your life. Continue to grow in love with Him.

I will always be here for you. I love you Ats!  More birthdays to come and celebrate!

                                                                                                                          – Ram


The one that you have been asking me – Matthew 21:22.


Like a Fugitive

A personal reflection on Psalm 84


The psalmist here describes the life of a man with God: Blessed and Better.

4 Blessed are those who dwell in your house;
they are ever praising you.

Blessed are those whose strength is in you,
whose hearts are set on pilgrimage.

10 Better is one day in your courts
than a thousand elsewhere;

I love to praise and worship God, to sing and dance especially during Worship nights that how I prayed it wouldn’t end and that my body won’t get tired of singing songs and praise to God and that my throat won’t run out of voice.

I also want to become a missionary, my heart is indeed for the missions, to go to places and share the greatness of God and how I pray that my circumstances will allow me but the Psalmist here encouraged me more to praise God with all my might and not  to doubt, not to be hindered, and not to be fear for the Lord doesn’t give me a spirit of fear but of power, love, and discipline (2 Timothy 1:7)  God  will equip me as I go from strength to strength.

They go from strength to strength,
till each appears before God in Zion.

In obedience to His calls, I will be blessed. As I pray, He listens. As I look up only to Him, He will look down at me with favor.

Hear my prayer, Lord God Almighty;
listen to me, God of Jacob.
Look on our shield, O God;
look with favor on your anointed one.

Better is one day in the courts of God, sharing to Him the life that I lived and will be living in obedience to His call as a worshipper and as a missionary than to live in thousand places like a fugitive in escape and excuses from His will and calling.

God did affirm me that my fear in the future will not overcome me for He will bless me as I put my trust and faith in Him.

12 Lord Almighty,
blessed is the one who trusts in you.

The Lord will direct my steps, for His words are a light unto my feet and a lamp unto my path. My future will never be uncertain with a certain God.


Lamb, Chosen, Blessed.

Chapter 10 (Part I)

He told them, “The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field. Go! I am sending you out like lambs among wolves.

Here I am, one of the lambs and part of  His flock. Comfortable, secured, and well fed.

A week after my water baptism, a woman prayed for me to be a disciple of God for the next generation; at that time, I was praying to God as well if I would go back to the youth ministry where my faith first spring. Those were the times that I am part of a group were I felt most comfortable, I’m one of the youngest, and I was well taken care of my elder sisters in Christ.

God said, GO!

I responded to God’s call after weeks of praying, I can see a harvest of young individuals every Saturday during our youth service. Who am I not to answer Jesus’ call to disciple. A lamb among the wolves? This is terrible to comprehend, but I will be still or  I am still for I know, God is using me to advance His Kingdom here on earth. Nothing to worry about, nothing to fear, for it was written,

17 The seventy-two returned with joy and said,“Lord, even the demons submit to us in your name.

16 “Whoever listens to you listens to me; whoever rejects you rejects me; but whoever rejects me rejects him who sent me.”

22 “All things have been committed to me by my Father. No one knows who the Son is except the Father, and no one knows who the Father is except the Son and those to whom the Son chooses to reveal him.”

The first time I encountered this verse, I feel like “FOR REAL LORD? I am chosen? Kinda like Harry Potter, the chosen one?”

But seriously, the fact that I know God, and  that every day I want to seek and find Him despite the truth that I can’t fully grasp who He is, is more than a proof that Jesus chose me to reveal God. The greatest truth is in Jesus, I met God. Jesus choose to die for me, for me to be with God again.  Jesus said that whoever rejects Him, rejects God; and as I accept Him, it also means I am heading to God, for Jesus said, “No one comes to the Father except through me.”

20 However, do not rejoice that the spirits submit to you, but rejoice that your names are written in heaven.”

I’m off to heaven, and I’m glad to know that!

When I was a little girl, I’m so thrilled about the idea of heaven and hell,  I really want to go to heaven and I thought that doing good here on earth will make me reach heaven, but Jesus said to me, “Rejoice! For you don’t have to make an effort anymore, just trust me, and your name will be in heaven”.

23 Then he turned to his disciples and said privately, “Blessed are the eyes that see what you see. 24 For I tell you that many prophets and kings wanted to see what you see but did not see it, and to hear what you hear but did not hear it.”

Blessed are my eyes and my ears? Jesus was talking to His disciples at this time, but it reaches me. I haven’t seen Jesus but I see miracles, and I haven’t heard Jesus talk but I heard testimonies. There is power in His name that even in this generation I can feel the Lord’s presence. More than 2000 years after Jesus left the earth still His words remain, and He said, blessed are those who hears it. If I am blessed to hear these words, who am I not to share these? I am so much blessed that I want to spread His words to be a blessing as well.

These Chapter is indeed more than overwhelming; summing it up, God sends me out to be a victorious lamb even in the midst of wolves for I am chosen by Jesus to know and be with God again, and I must rejoice for my name is in heaven already and that I am blessed for I know the things that He wants me to know.


H.H.W.W. (Holding Hands While Walking)

The best walk will be with the best Man.

At times, I found myself smiling during worship with my hands on my side; these are the times that I’m feeling that I have Jesus by my side standing with me hand in hand. It made me so feel “kilig” knowing that He is just so near and within my reach.

Sometimes, I would picture myself walking with Jesus; and it would always made me wonder where He would take me. When I am happy and in bliss, I will close my eyes and picture myself with Jesus walking in a garden where I will  tell Him what I feel, how happy I was, and how grateful I am for having Him.

He holds my hands.

There are also times that I would find myself walking in a sea of problems, stressful situations, and despair, but as I close my eyes, and picture how Jesus is so near and I could hold His hands, my worries and pain would simply go away.

“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” – Isaiah 41:10 

The worst walks will be walking alone, no one beside me, and no one to look after me, but when I feel like I’m drowning in loneliness and fear, and doubting His presence; Jesus as I close my eyes will still be there offering His hands, waiting for me to walk with Him.

“..Jesus immediately reaches out his hand and caught him.”– Matthew 14:31

I may walk in calm or raging waters but I have Jesus with me, I will never be afraid. I am not alone.

In calm and raging waters, I will be still knowing that He holds my hands.

You may think that I am crazy for imagining that I am walking with Jesus. Crazy in love? Maybe.

I’m just so in love with Jesus that I would always picture myself walking with Him, I long to walk with Him every day.

I’m so in love walking with a God of hope; and with Him I will never be a hopeless romantic.

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The Love that isn’t fair…

Last night, I was listening to the song “I just haven’t met you yet” by Michael Bubble, and the line “All is fair in love” somewhat caught my attention that made me think and ask whether love is really fair.

Suddenly, I was reminded about the real love that I have found, and I could say that love isn’t really fair.

His love isn’t fair.

“But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” – Romans 5:8 (NIV)

If real love is fair then I am unloved.

I am grateful because the ultimate love that I could ever have isn’t fair; He loves me with my flaws and all. I am not worthy, yet He died for me, and He rose to live again with me. I don’t deserve His love, yet He loves me beyond what I could imagine.

His love is incomparable that I could never love Him the same. His love is so big that I was so lost in the vastness of His love.  His love is unconditional, beyond fairness, and equality.

I may feel unworthy at times, but with Him I will never be unloved.