Bimby Yap in this TV Ad said, “Mama, you’re my number ONE.”

Last Saturday when I had a chance to talk to one of the GROUNDED girls in Church who shares the same group with me, I also said this line to her saying, “Bea, you’re my number ONE.” After saying this, I told her there is no number 2, no ranking, for all of the girls entrusted to me are my number ones.

The milk product endorsed by the TV Ad gives nourishment, growth, and strength hence its called FORTIFIED. 

And because I care and I love my number ones, I need to be fortified as well. Day and night, I pray that God will  nourish and fill me so that my cup will overflow and that I can nourish others too, I pray for my self so that I may give my self. But the scripture said…

If you point these things out to the brothers and sisters, you will be a good minister of Christ Jesus, nourished on the truths of the faith and of the good teaching that you have followed.” – 1 Timothy 4:6

… therefore as I share what I have to my number ones, I am also nourished. But more than sharing of our lives to each other, at the end of the day, it will never be about me or us, it will always points back to God, the one who sustains and nourishes our relationships and faith.

I read my Bible every day; and every Saturday, I would encourage the girls to do the same. There are times that I felt like resting, read other books, or just sleep instead of devoting a time to God then God will just remind me of these girls, my number ones. God just simply tells me “Practice what you preach”, so I read for my own growth and I also read and listen to God’s words for my number ones growth as well. A pastor once said in one of his preachings, “I read the Bible for my own, and I read it separately for my ministry.”  

Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, now that you have tasted that the Lord is good.” – 1 Peter 2:2-3

I believe the best thing about sharing lives is the sharing of learning and wisdom, growing from experiences and in Jesus through His words.

Last Saturday in GROUNDED, one of our Campus Ministers, Kuya Francis Villanueva said, “We are NOT SUPER CHRISTIANS.” No one is perfect, no one is strong or wise enough to take care of the flock of the shepherd.  Each mentor, friend, and leader has flaws and weaknesses. We are humans, and we need Jesus to be strong.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” – Philippians 4:13

But being strong in Christ doesn’t mean I must live a life alone – facing challenges all  by myself, reading my Bible alone, and going to Church without company. I must share this strength and gain more strength from the strength of others. As an “ate” (older sister) in the Youth Ministry, I believe, I must use my strength wisely and won’t just be like Samson instead be like Jesus – the God who shares His power when He heals, His wisdom as He preached,  His love as He died, and His kingdom as He live again. My body may feel tired every Saturday from class then Grounded and life group, but still I find myself when I reached home fulfilled for I know the strength and the time I spent with every number ones was worth it.

I’m not a one tough “ATE” of my number ones; I cry when they cry, I got disappointed when they are disappointed, I giggle when they giggle, and I laugh when they laugh.

I pray for them, and I know they pray for me too. I may fail them, and they may fail me too. But one thing will never change, my love for them like my own sisters in Christ.

And just like Ms. Kris Aquino who wants NOTHING BUT THE BEST for her kids, I also want what’s best for my number ones. So I remain Grounded and Fortified in Christ Jesus.


Because you never fail to inspire me to be the best, for you my baby Bea, NOTHING BUT THE BEST fortified “Ate”  in me. I love you.

“You’re my number one.”

                                                               -Ate Ram

More of my Baby Bea here.


Mean, Median, Mode

I was with my training mates on our way home today in a very happy mood for Mr. Sunshine is out already after having his 2 weeks off when I remembered my mother’s thesis that I’m working into right now. I was sharing to them that I’m into Statistics already saying, “Malay ko ba sa Mean na yan (Care about the Mean), mean lang ako minsan noh (I’m just mean sometimes.)”  And then, my friend, Camille said “Hindi ka Mean, Median ka, coMedian (Your not mean, you’re a median, coMedian”. We all laugh, and then to complete this, I said, Minsan Mode din ako (Sometimes I’m mode) MODEy! (moody). Laughs!

Well, I really love Math that I can now relate to it, or should I say I can laugh  and even make fun out of it.

But going back to the real meaning of it, here’s some basic Stats:

Mean, Median, and Mode are three kinds of “averages”.

There are many “averages” in statistics, but these are, I think, the three most common.

The Mean is the “average” we are used to, where we add up all the numbers and then divide by the number of numbers.

The Median is the “middle” value in the list of numbers. To find the median, the numbers have to be listed in numerical order, so we have to rewrite the list first.

The Mode is the value that occurs most often. If no number is repeated, then there is no mode for the list.


Sometimes, going back reviewing this stuff makes me realized that I’m grateful for surviving College with all its Math. 🙂



Meet my Robins

Growing up watching superheroes with my male cousins and war movies with my uncle was full of fun and adventure, like them I dream to be like Batman and ride his bat mobile. I wanted to be the Dark Knight and a soldier. Being born in a Penal Colony where Justice must prevail, I feel more than safe and secure that fear walking home late at night never occurred in me. A gun or a riffle is part of every household, a place where criminals are captured and kept in jail. I was well protected and taken care of, many people looks after me. I feel no fear of the world, I also never experienced typhoons nor flood, for our town was surrounded by trees plus the majestic Mt. Apo. I was brave because I have nothing to be scared of. One tragic experience that broke the fragile in me was when I lost my mother; like the young Batman I faced those dark nights in pain and tears; and like him, I took the courage to stand and face the typhoons of life.

I woke up one Monday morning, the day after super typhoon Mina strike Manila; the sun was up and it was a good day to travel, so I got dressed, ride a bus, and conquered Manila.

Watching superheroes, I always see and admire the sidekicks, the friends of Superman, Ron and Hermione of Harry Potter, the Robin of Batman; and with them, I realized that in life no one’s alone, we all have our own Robins. That day as I bravely left home after the typhoon, I met the Robins that God has placed in my life.

And here they are…

The Youth

The youth of this generation having fun in the mud left by the typhoon with their dirty hands and feet, reminds me that happiness is a choice; we don’t have to search for it, instead we just have to decide whether to be happy or not. Happiness is just out there free and ready for the taking. Like these youth, they find happiness getting dirty while playing in the mud, enjoying their present believing that tomorrow will come with its own happiness.

The horse feels the pain when whipped; he feels the burden of a heavy carriage but he can’t complain, for its how he was rewarded. This is how he lives, it’s his purpose. The horse suffers but endures. It reminded me that sometimes we carry heavy burdens and pain strikes us so hard not for us to complain but for us to endure that will eventually makes us stronger.

The Tree

Every storm leaves a mark, devastation, and lost. This tree experienced the storms, but it remained standing despite the heavy rains and strong winds. This tree knows that it needs the heavy rains for its water, the gases from the strong wind, and the wet soil for its nutrients. This reminds me that life is a gift wrapped with different kinds of surprises; prepared or not, we must stand still and know that challenges are sometimes needed in unraveling the marvelous things enclosed with it.

The couple

This couple stayed so close that even the heat of the sun or the heavy rains could not separate them. They reminded me that through the storms, you don’t have to be alone; there is always this one (or many)  that will stay with you no matter how hot the weather is or how strong the storms are.

The old man

I don’t know the name or the age of this old man. I also don’t know how long he is living, or how many storms he has witnessed neither the problems that he overcomed and the sadness that he has triumphed with joy. This man reminds me that being strong doesn’t depend on the number of storms that passed by but on how many times you stood up everytime a storm knocks you down.

The Praying Woman

This woman reminds me that if it takes too hard to stand, we can always kneel; that when the storms came and thunders roar we can keep quiet, be still and know that there is someone greater than us. All we have to do is to pray not just for the storms to pass but for a better umbrella.

Robins are everywhere, we may not know them by name, they can be an animal or a plant; one thing is for sure they have helped the Batman in us not just to be a hero but to be a better person.

If Superman has friends, Batman have Robin, he’s a friend who stays in the dark, in danger, in strife, and in storms. Just like this picture of my friends, who stayed with me before, during, and after the super typhoon Mina.

My friends.

For five years I survived Manila with its increasing criminal rate and the number of visiting typhoons. I survived Manila like Batman conquered Gotham. On this day trip in Manila, I saw the Batman in me or should I call myself the “Dark Knight Princess” and you just met my Robins during super typhoon Mina.

Thousands of Robins are still out there coming our way every day; and with them, we can never be afraid of the dark and even with storms.


 Photos courtesy of Architect Rolf Gary Ridao taken on August 29, 2011, at the city of Manila, Philippines.