Apat na Buwan Pa Lang

Apat na buwan pa lang mula nang tayo’y pinag-isa

Sandali pa lang naman pala

Sa pakiramdam ay sobrang tagal na

Apat na buwan na puno nang iyak at tawa

Nasugatan ng malalim pero kinakaya

Masakit man, nagagawa pa rin magsaya

Apat na buwan pa lang, pero tayo’y sinubok na

Parang quota na agad sa sakit at luha

Sobra pa sa iniyak natin sa isang taon na tayo’y mag-jowa

Apat na buwan pa lang na puno nang aral at alaala

Na isusulat ko sa iba’t ibang tula

Upang baunin natin hanggang sa pagtanda

Apat na buwan pa lang sa pangarap nating lima o anim na dekada

Marami pa tayong isasayaw at ikakanta

Hanggang sa daliri mo’y di na kayang mag-gitara

Apat na buwan pa lang tayong mag-asawa

Ang dami na nating malalim na buntong hininga

Buti na lang nasa Diyos ang ating pag-asa

Apat na buwan pa lang tayong nagsisimula

Malayo pa tayo kahit sa gitna

Pagsubok siguro ay marami pa

Apat na buwan pa lang, may habambuhay pa

Wala namang di kakayanin, ‘di ba?

Hanggang kapit natin ang isa’t isa

Apat na buwan pa lang ang lumipas at nawala,

May mga darating na bukas pa

Haharapin natin lahat na magkasama

Apat na buwan pa lang ngayon, Papa

Marami pang buwan at taon na mamahalin kita

Dahil “hanggang wala nang bukas” ang pangako natin sa isa’t isa

and the two will become one flesh. So they are no longer two, but one flesh – Mark 10:8


That Word. Those Acts. This Blog.

Since this is my 100th blog post, allow me to share how my last Saturday (November 24, 2012) went great and was filled with wisdom. This is also my last blog post,  so pardon me for making this quite lengthy.

Let me start with Grounded and that WORD.

Kuya/Pastor Edrei preached about the Miracle of Salvation. It was an intense preaching on the story of Zacchaeus and his encounter with Jesus (Luke 19:1-10). I already know this story since I’m 4 years old maybe, and since then,  it was just like “let’s welcome Jesus like Zacchaeus.”  Not until I turned 22 and encountered this story with a deeper understanding and realized that this is a story of repentance. (Click this for my first reflection on this story.)

One of the main points of Kuya Edrei’s preaching was “we didn’t choose Jesus, but He chose us”, and I strongly agree with him, for among the crowd who welcomed Him, Jesus was the one who chose Zacchaeus and  not vice versa.

In our Life Group, I asked the girls what was God’s message to them with the story of Zacchaeus. With their permissions, here are their replies,

Bea: “Zacchaeus,  ‘chief’ (given emphasis) tax collector, big time sinner, BUT big time or small time sinner, its just the same. We are all sinners, and we all need Jesus. “

Rachel: “God has plans; it is up for us to accept it. Like Zacchaeus, when Jesus called him, he accept it and he was saved.”

Abby: “Jesus found us. He had a good life in heaven, yet He came down to look  for a sinner like me, like us.”

I was so blessed with the preaching and the girls’ sharing, so out of my abundance I shared mine as well. If the last time God showed me that this was about repentance, this time God impressed on my heart that He is asking for obedience. As Kuya Edrei was reading the Gospel, one word was somehow given emphasis that for how many years of hearing this story, I did not notice that this word was  there. That word is “IMMEDIATELY.”

That word!

Jesus did not said, “Zac, take your time and come down here” nor “Zac, I’ll wait for you at your house, meet me when you’re ready.”  Jesus’ words were clear, “Come down, IMMEDIATELY.” There was an urgency in His words.

Look what happened next, immediately Zac came down and obeyed Jesus, immediately He repented, immediately there was reconciliation, and immediately Jesus said that Zac was saved. See that? Salvation came in a span of hours for Zacchaeus!

When God impressed that word on me, I can’t help but be on my knees during the worship. Why? Because it took me many years before I came down and fully obeyed Him. If only, I came down with my pride and humbled myself immediately the very first time I heard Him call then I had lesser heartaches, lesser sins, lesser regrets, lesser sufferings, etc., etc.

I remember Abby said, “Ouch, parang binababatukan na ako ni Lord,” I then replied, Abby, ako na-paddle na ni Lord sa tagal kong sumunod.”

Jesus demands Zacchaeus obedience. He didn’t asked Zac to repent or give back what he had taken to the people; God didn’t demand sacrifices, for He demands obedience better than sacrifice. Furthermore, late obedience is still disobedience.

See that word IMMEDIATELY? I believe Jesus means it. Is Jesus calling you?  If Yes, see the urgency in His words. Respond immediately!

Breaking Dawn Part II and those ACTIONS.

While watching the last installment of Stephenie Meyers’ Twilight Saga, Breaking Dawn Part II, two particular actions did caught my attention and created a pinch on my heart. I’ve read all the books (twice), so I know the story fully well, but when I saw it on the big screen, these two actions create an impact on my thoughts and even emotions.

First act: Dr. Carlisle Cullen, a dignified, law-abiding,  and peace-loving vampire  attacked the Volturi. He did it out of what? Out of love and protection for her  adopted daughter, Alice.

I think that scene really reached me because I grew up fatherless, but then I realized that God is the same (not a vampire), but He would do the same for all of His children. Carlisle risked losing  his eternal life as a vampire just to save his vampire daughter; God gave up His son’s life just to save us. I may not have a father here on earth who would risk his life just to save me, but I know one man already gave up His life just for me to be saved, and with that, I have an eternal life to praise and thank Him.

 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. – John 3:16

Second act: Edward and Emmett Cullen attacked the Volturi in revenge of their father’s life.  I saw the pain, the hurt, and the anger in the Cullen brothers as they fight.

With that act,  I started to wonder if I can do the same for my Father. I remember our Grounded Leaders Summit wherein we had a basketball game and the other team just stayed on their court defending their net; they never won, and they got tired defending. In the end, we concluded that with our faith, we must also learn how to attack because we can never win the world if we just stay on our comfort zones. How can we reach out the world to Christ when we just stay at the corners of our church?

 I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. – Philippians 1:20

Let me go back to Zacchaeus who was bold enough to seek Christ and obey Him as His follower.  Zac was not ashamed in doing the right things; he was not ashamed of what others may tell about him with his new identity in Christ.

How about you? What will you do if someone offended Jesus in your face? With your life in Christ, how bold you are and how daring you can be?


After a lengthy Saturday, I edit a blog post then I saw this  stats report:

as of November 24, 2012

Stats for 30 days as of 11-24-12

As I reflect and look back, I realized that a big part of what I did and doing since childhood until now is sharing His words. I was part of the Bible class since 3-1/2 years old, been invited to speak in different youth camps and conferences since 15, and now in just months of blogging, it reached this far!

My relatives weren’t shocked with this (unlike me), and they even asked if I’m preaching in the pulpit already; they know me since birth and maybe they saw that this is coming. I just realized how blessed I am to know His words and blessed enough to share it.  I feel blessed when I received invites to talk; however, I have been turning down offers  in camps and conferences as a speaker (because of my shifting schedule). I also feel blessed every time I received comments from different people saying how my writings helped them and how they feel God more. I know that this is my gift and my purpose (somehow), for God has been calling me to do more (since my senior year in High School);  however, I am still dealing  this with Him, 6 years and counting Lord. (It was  no wonder why obedience and courage was the message of God.. hehe) 

I remember when I was still a prideful and overachiever little girl, I used to say, “I will be great and be part of the History”. Now that God humbled me, I say, I may not be like Paul who was used by God to write His words and became part of world History, but I believe with this gift, God will use me in sharing HIS STORY. 

So, why shall I stop writing then? Well, this is just the last blog post in this website. 

How bold I am in Christ? Here’s how I will show it…

my very own site

my very own website

The site is not up yet, but I’ll be promoting this SOON when it’s running already.

 For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes… – Romans 1:16


Feel – Fill- Full

Allow me to create my own Powerful Points to share an overwhelming half-day Summit with the Grounded Leaders. I don’t have the time to take notes during this event yet I believe the lessons shared is still stock in my mind and inscribed in my heart.

Lessons I learned from the Grounded Leaders Summit 8-18-12: 

Be Observant! 

When Pastor King demonstrated our dance steps I wasn’t focused that when the time comes that we have to dance in order for us to meet our group mates, I was lost and couldn’t find my group. Look at me in the photo below, I’m so lost right?

 Lesson Learned: When someone gives instructions, listen and observed carefully. 


Boys will be Boys!

When Pastor Edrei informed every one that there will be a separate session for the boys and girls, this thought came to mind, “Boys are created differently- anatomically and genetically that’s why their thoughts and actions are different from girls.” Girls don’t think the way boys think, and girls don’t act the way the boys do. Having this thought in mind, I know that being surrounded with girls makes me feel more comfortable because I know they will understand me, my acts, my words, and even just my stare – boys can never decode that. We will always have that time that we want to know more about the opposite sex, but I believe the best way to learn that is by being surrounded with your same sex friends. Because when you know who you are, what you are, and what you do, you will never lose that identity when you mingle with the opposites.


Lesson Learned: We can never fully understand the opposite sex, but we can make them better by becoming better with our own.


Feel right to be Filled righteously!

We are so blessed to be with Ms. Phoebe that day, and here are the things I learned  On Senses and Influence:

  • The song that we sing or hear creates a memory, an emotion, and actions. When we listen to a song, it somehow creates a thought or reminds us of someone or somethings or events. When you hear a love song, will you feel bitter or kilig? A song could create an emotion. When it’s raining, what would we listen to? A rock, hardcore music, a senti or a bossa nova? When the music is on a fast beat? Won’t we just feel the beat to dance? What we hear dictates our emotions; the bad news is, it happens unconsciously. So listen to what is good that will make you think and do good and not just feel good.
  • The taste, when the food presented to us is sweet or something we like, won’t we crave for more? When a food is unpleasant to the taste, will we finish eating it or just throw up? I didn’t know that my first taste of Starbucks coffee would make me a coffee addict (see my confessions here),  yet my addiction started on my first taste as the cravings succeeded over me. I love the line that says, “Watch what you eat, don’t eat what you watch” but it hurts to hear the line that says, “You are what you eat”. It hurts because I’m an unhealthy eater, the Bible says, “our bodies is the temple of the Holy Spirit”. Our taste dictates our appetite, our appetite drives us to eat. What we feed our body is a gift to the One who dwells in it. Taste what is right to eat right.
  • Sight! I’m a reader, a book lover, a traveler, and a researcher. My eyes have seen wonders and beautiful sights already.  My prayer to God is this, “Lord, of all my senses and body parts please spare my 20/20 vision.”  I protect my eyes because in all the things I do, my eyes are essential. But more than protecting my eyes physically, I tend to forget that my eyes are also the window to my inner being. I haven’t protected my eyes from the emotional and the unseen danger, I read matured books, adult films, and seen pornographic materials. What entered my eyes enters my heart as well. When I called Christ as my Lord, I surrendered everything to Him that when I say, I offer my body as a living sacrifice holy and pleasing to Him, it doesn’t mean that my eyes are exempted. So I guard my eyes by reading books and watching movies that won’t compromise the holiness and the righteousness of the blood of Jesus that covers me. And here’s another prayer for my eyes, “Lord, help me not set before my eyes anything that is worthless.”

Lesson Learned: Our hearts doesn’t have a brain, it doesn’t know how to think, it beats as dictated by the perceptions of our brains, what our brains perceived is acted on by our heart. So before we say we guard our hearts, we must first guard our thoughts and our senses. For what we see, hear, taste, smell, and feel fills us.


Push don’t just Pull!

Don’t just be on the defense side, know how to attack! The world may throw us a lot of things, but being secured and grounded in His love and words, we will never be shaken. We know the word, we absorbed it, we fill our hearts with it, but what happens when someone attacks and steal those words and worth in us? Shall we allow those snatchers? Or we fight back?  Scripture says, “For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.” Fight with love! We don’t fight to make them losers instead we win them for God.

Lesson Learned: No one wins in basketball by just guarding their  home courts, players win because they go to the opponents court side to shoot and make a score. 


It will NEVER be about YOU!

After our separate sessions, we did have our brainstorming/ case studies about modesty, conduct, relationship between boys to girls, dealing with fellow youth, etc. Some questions are hard to answer, but in the end I believe we are all humans, we have shortcomings, we are saved not by our own efforts, we are all work in progress, and we are able to love others because we can feel the love of God. We can love those who wear short shorts, those who are suicidal, clingy, infatuated, childish etc., because we have been loved unconditionally. And as young as we are, we  must equip ourselves to be better leaders and influence to our fellow youth.


Lesson Learned: How we live our lives is a testament on how we live the fullness of life that Christ has offered.  Our lives will never be about us, but it will always be about Him.